Most anyone who reads this blog has likely heard of the term “drop”. Whether referring to the D,T,M side of things or the s,b,s side. I have seen Sweetness and others I have had varying dynamics with go through it, and I admit there has been a time when I had it and due to my partner’s inexperience had to work through it myself.
As a quick summation “drop” is an experience dealing with brain chemicals adrenaline and endorphins which spike when in a perceived intense scene and then fall away afterwards. This is part of the reason aftercare is important as it allows both partners to attempt to prevent the drop and also be on the lookout for it.
Symptoms and treatment I think is fairly well covered here.
With that important PSA out of the way, back to the regularly scheduled blogging. About two weeks ago I was involved in a week long jury trial for a rather serious sex offense. Much like in the scene, when any attorney who gives a damn goes into trial he experiences adrenaline and endorphin highs. I personally have them from about Saturday-Sunday on and through trial during the day and it is normal to carry through. My sweetness has termed it almost as if I am positive manic. During that case I would actually experience minor drops that resulted in the sleeplessness described in the link. The trouble with engaging in litigation, which let me say aside from family and dynamic time is probably the most fun thing ever for me, is it ends in one form or another. I was successful in the trial with the jury out on what the prosecutor had called a slam dunk case for 30 minutes before returning the NG, and as one experiences when they have a big success or are deeply invested in a sports team that wins a championship or big game, I got a huge endorphin rush.
Now something to really understand about litigators I have spoken to, the spike lasts only as long as it is “in our control” meaning that once the closings are done and its time to give the case to the jury, BOOM out goes the floor and the rapid drop is initiated. I was fortunate that the jury took so little time to see things my way and I got the added boost from a win.
Yesterday was the completion of another even more serious sex trial which would have resulted in a mandatory life sentence for my client. Another almost weeklong trial that I began working almost as soon as I finished trial above, which means you still have that little buzz of adrenaline and endorphins because like a child waiting for a promised exciting event you have something to look forward to. This jury was decidedly less expedient in seeing things my way. They were out from 9 AM until about 650 last night. Again another win and bump in Adrenaline and endorphins.
I am exhausted, the ups the downs, the here’s and there’s. And I start another trial that will likely go 4-5 days on Monday so took the night off last night and begin again. BIG DROP from the combination of coming down and exhaustion. I remember walking into the bathroom, I remember getting into the shower, and then I next remember becoming aware I am sitting on the floor of the shower with sweetness naked behind me and rubbing my shoulders as her wet body pushed against my back and gently humming/singing Fifth Harmony. Let’s just say the rollercoaster went back up the hill.
So I apologize for being absent fairly recently and promise to be back to more regularity soon, but I must admit I look forward to next week as I imagine I will have about as close to scene fun with the liars the state is putting forward against my client and of course the agreed upon promise that sweetness will be waiting at home to do more work after the trial.